I’m 19 weeks pregnant. Next week I will see my baby for the last time until he or she is born. Next week I will lie there, still, while they measure organs and bones and heart-beats. Next week, my heart shall be in my mouth once more. I can’t shake that feeling again. Do I really deserve another healthy child?
Every woman must go through this to some extent. You just want your baby to be healthy. I’ve been blogging about this pregnancy over at iVillage, at Ghostwritermummy and Bump. It’s my pregnancy blog, where I can write about my fears and my hopes, and the humorous things that pregnant life throws at you too. Writing, as ever, is my therapy.
This week I have written a series of posts that reflect the mixed emotions that are running through my mind at the moment. My morning sickness has returned. My feelings of slight panic an dread are starting to return. I’m feeling a little anxious and I don’t want to feel that way. I’m feeling a little misunderstood and a little confused. I guess this is all normal, in a pregnancy after birth trauma.
Again, I want to highlight the Birth Trauma Association. The ladies over there on the Facebook group are always available to offer support and guidance. Recent events have told me that more people need to be aware of them and the work they do- traumatic birth or not. Education is vital.
Jayne and I would like to organise a fund raising event and this is where the request for help comes in. We need your creative ideas. We need your offers of help. We need you to share this with as many people as you can to make this a reality.
Maternity Matters is, at the time of writing, number 2 in the Wikio Health blog rankings. This has to mean something. This has to mean that people are coming here for a reason. Let’s make that reason count.
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